ps I'm sort of feeling down about writing -having neglected it so long- as well, but since I've received very good scores on my academic writing this quarter I am "guardedly optimistic" as they say.
You know, on the other hand I also recently looked at my older writing and some of it I think 'hey wow that's pretty decent,' but a lot of it I just think 'what on earth this is awful.' I guess this implies my standards for what constitute good has gone up, which I think is (probably?) a good thing.

I also had a really funny experience with my English midterm. I wrote it in a night and a morning, but the essay portion was truly started and finished the morning it was due. I thought it was probably mostly rubbish, and had my mom read it to make sure it was decent before I left. I did not read it once I had finished writing. Weeks and weeks later we got the midterms back. I had recieved an A, so I was curious if it really was good. I started reading as I left class and sat down at a table to finish. I was astonished: the paper flowed perfectly and was very well written, and felt sort of like reading something by someone else that was enjoyable. See, this is kind of ironic, because I'm trying to write about reading something I wrote, and it's late and I'm exhausted from preparing for and writing my English final (which I'm pretty sure is no where near as good) so my current writing is actually really terrible. I suppose it's a good thing I decided to check dev one last time instead of start my LJ final.
enough random I'm sleepin

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